I had an epiphany tonight while i was talking to Gabe on Yahoo! It went a little something like this:
oh oops Preface: My sister (19) is pregnant and My dad's Girlfriend is also pregnant...both of these things hit me like a brick.
megganperkins: it is weird...i think i just had an epiphany
GABEY!: tell me!
megganperkins: so, i am talking to loren right..?
GABEY!: yes?
megganperkins: she text me today about the overalls and a dress
GABEY!: yes?
GABEY!: nice shot
megganperkins: lol thanks
megganperkins: and she kept talking, and even sent me a picture of her "baby belly"
megganperkins: she is huge
megganperkins: and it almost upset me for a little bit
megganperkins: BUT
GABEY!: yeah
megganperkins: i mean, let's face it, my family is and never has been perfect, and as much as I wish that were not the case...it is
megganperkins: so, this is their life...her life...my dad's life.
megganperkins: Our life will be everything I have ever wanted and More.
megganperkins: So Loren can pop out ten kids and my dad can make a whole other family if he wants...
megganperkins: I am happy with MY life and where OUR life will be today, tomorrow, and always.
megganperkins: And, God put Loren and Otis in my life for a reason. And, I am thankful to have them...I got a lot of good sense from their mistakes
megganperkins: But also, I am happy for them...i hope that they each grow from their own experiences
GABEY!: i think these thoughts are absolutely great
GABEY!: my mom has 2 sayings she wants me to know
megganperkins: do tell
GABEY!: love those who add to your life, but also those who subtract from it, the former has shown you how to live, while the latter has shown you not to
GABEY!: what you're saying reminds me of that
megganperkins: what is the other one?
GABEY!: anyone can hold the helm while the sea is calm
megganperkins: And are you going to shoot?
megganperkins: lol, i guess that one doesn't apply much at this very instant.
megganperkins: but I like it too
GABEY!: good
GABEY!: I think your epiphany is excellent tho!
megganperkins: thank you, i feel a lot better about it all
GABEY!: im glad that you do
GABEY!: thats why i love the saying through difficulty lies opportunity
GABEY!: because even tho this situation was getting you down, you found a way to learn from it and become so much more confident in yourself
megganperkins: well, i guess, opportunity for me to grow...they have a lot more than opportunity commin to em
GABEY!: and thats an opportunity
megganperkins: thank you baby!
megganperkins: you do give the greatest advice
megganperkins: I really dont know why i ever let this bother me before
GABEY!: because its new
megganperkins: What I have is what I want, and What I am striving for is How I want my life to be...It is Mine...not theirs and if they judged my choice of lifestyle I would disagree prolly as much as I have been in the past with their choices
megganperkins: but they are Thiers to choose
GABEY!: nicely stated!
I feel so much better about this.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
SOOO anywho
I have been thinking a lot about "How I maintain relationships". It was a topic you brought up a long time ago now, but a good one that I never wrote about.
So, obviously some relationships I maintain through face-to-face contact. Currently my school relationships are maintained in this fashion; however, when I am away from Bethany I use the phone. Just like with my friends and family back home I call often and text throughout the day, email is also productive when it comes to maintaining relationships through distance.
With friends, particularly the ones I keep in contact with back home, I call and text often, I email and send photos, and also we chat using Yahoo!messanger. I used to use Facebook and Myspace, but that was consuming a lot of time and was mostly used not even on the friends I keep in contact with (rather with random old acquaintances who pop up with random conversation starters).
With Gabe specifically, we maintain our relationship through telephone, face-to-face (when we can find the time), chatting, texting, emailing, playing games online together, voice and video calling on our laptops, and “snail-mail” (sending cards through the postal service). We are pretty much at any time working in one way or another on maintaining our relationship.
Since my family and I are not quite as close the main and really only way of maintaining our relationship is through sporadic phone calls and text messages. I guess every once in a while we send each other packages too. And, with Odie and me especially we email, chat and use the phone.
guess that's pretty much it
So, obviously some relationships I maintain through face-to-face contact. Currently my school relationships are maintained in this fashion; however, when I am away from Bethany I use the phone. Just like with my friends and family back home I call often and text throughout the day, email is also productive when it comes to maintaining relationships through distance.
With friends, particularly the ones I keep in contact with back home, I call and text often, I email and send photos, and also we chat using Yahoo!messanger. I used to use Facebook and Myspace, but that was consuming a lot of time and was mostly used not even on the friends I keep in contact with (rather with random old acquaintances who pop up with random conversation starters).
With Gabe specifically, we maintain our relationship through telephone, face-to-face (when we can find the time), chatting, texting, emailing, playing games online together, voice and video calling on our laptops, and “snail-mail” (sending cards through the postal service). We are pretty much at any time working in one way or another on maintaining our relationship.
Since my family and I are not quite as close the main and really only way of maintaining our relationship is through sporadic phone calls and text messages. I guess every once in a while we send each other packages too. And, with Odie and me especially we email, chat and use the phone.
guess that's pretty much it
Monday, March 2, 2009
re-write
Obviously I did not do a proper job of communicating what I wanted to be said about my brother last blog. He is precocious and has a lot of good going for him...which is why my dad is so hard on him, but when I was growing up, I had a family...not just a parent. So our childhoods are much much different. Odie is SUPER SMART he is a junior and his calculus teacher at his school is getting her masters so that she can teach HIM college algebra next year because he is the first student that has come through his school and been that advanced. He is also athletically talented and can play nearly any sport. His football team won state this year and he has been on the varsity team since he transferred to that school his sophomore year. Prodigy is definitely what I meant, seeing as my sister never even graduated from high school and I have no athletic tendencies whatsoever. If it weren't for dance I would be a couch potatoe lol does potatoe have an e? that looks funny to me.
Just to clarify on that last post.
Just to clarify on that last post.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Parents...
So, my dad calls me today, which is strange in itself because even though we have a good relationship we just don't make the time to call each other that often. So he calls right, and he says he wants my uninhibited, disrespectful, truthful response to some problem because I know both parties involved. So the story goes a little something like this:
My brother, Odie, is 17, a Junior in High School at a really conservative private school. Now, this school will kick you out for any infraction of the law...if they find out about it. SO hopefully they don't read their student's sibling's blogs. BUT Odie got a MIC last summer for refusing a breathalizer. This was the first time that my parents had heard anything about Odie and drinking...he is kind of our prodigy child...Well, he was the youngest when my parents got a divorce so I guess in some ways he kind of got screwed but also in some ways he got some advantages.
My parents are like the most dysfunctional people in the world, and they are even worse together. So when it comes to parenting, they kind of suck sometimes. Well, Mom says Odie is drinking again, and Dad thinks he is still supposed to take some sort of responsibility for what happens at mom's because she doesn't. However, it all means nothing when it comes from one person and isn't inforced by the one who is actually there.. crazies.
So dad wants my advice on how "the talk" should go. lol, My Dad asking ME how his talk with His Son should go? Is something wrong with that or is that just me? Well, I'm sure my bro likes it because I love him so I always stand up for him, even when I know he is in the wrong because Odie and I can have the same convo my dad would attempt and Odie would listen to me better because we have a better relationship. So, I give my dad the advice I have in my young, immature, know-nothinng-about-parenting brain and hope for the best. I guess I will find out from my brother how that talk went later...
great.
Can you get a picture of my relationship map already?? everyone in my family is going to be a blob because they are all a mess! =o)
wish.me.luck.
My brother, Odie, is 17, a Junior in High School at a really conservative private school. Now, this school will kick you out for any infraction of the law...if they find out about it. SO hopefully they don't read their student's sibling's blogs. BUT Odie got a MIC last summer for refusing a breathalizer. This was the first time that my parents had heard anything about Odie and drinking...he is kind of our prodigy child...Well, he was the youngest when my parents got a divorce so I guess in some ways he kind of got screwed but also in some ways he got some advantages.
My parents are like the most dysfunctional people in the world, and they are even worse together. So when it comes to parenting, they kind of suck sometimes. Well, Mom says Odie is drinking again, and Dad thinks he is still supposed to take some sort of responsibility for what happens at mom's because she doesn't. However, it all means nothing when it comes from one person and isn't inforced by the one who is actually there.. crazies.
So dad wants my advice on how "the talk" should go. lol, My Dad asking ME how his talk with His Son should go? Is something wrong with that or is that just me? Well, I'm sure my bro likes it because I love him so I always stand up for him, even when I know he is in the wrong because Odie and I can have the same convo my dad would attempt and Odie would listen to me better because we have a better relationship. So, I give my dad the advice I have in my young, immature, know-nothinng-about-parenting brain and hope for the best. I guess I will find out from my brother how that talk went later...
great.
Can you get a picture of my relationship map already?? everyone in my family is going to be a blob because they are all a mess! =o)
wish.me.luck.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
The Raven
Once upon a midday cleary, while I wandered online bikini...
We cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above her chamber door,
With such a name as "Nevermore."
But the raven, sitting lonely on that staircase spoke only,
That one word... "Nevermore."
Today a bird came into my dorm. It scared the crap out of everyone in Anna Marm.
I think it was trying to eat us! =o/
We cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above her chamber door,
With such a name as "Nevermore."
But the raven, sitting lonely on that staircase spoke only,
That one word... "Nevermore."
Today a bird came into my dorm. It scared the crap out of everyone in Anna Marm.
I think it was trying to eat us! =o/
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Your Honor, I Object
I am having a hard time coming up with three blogs a week. I want to write thought-filled, charismatic posts, however, I have a hard time being so full of inquisitive thoughts and passion all the time...hah. SOOOO, I think I should just have to write twice a week for a longer amount of time in weeks. I do not want to write boring, meaningless rambles weekly. I will keep trying to make three times a week, just lettin ya know...ya know?
That being said. My thought for today is: I wish I lived in a Musical. lol I am watching Chicago on TV and I love it! I wish I could walk through my day and anytime a problem presents itself my friends and I would break into song and sing and dance our worries away. haha wouldn't that be awesome?!?! Maybe it is a silly thought, but I like it! That deals with Interpersonal Communication, beeecause I could talk to everyone in song. lol okay really it doesn't deal with it in any awesome way but today was one of those days I was speaking of earlier and I pushed it. SO, if you don't want to see posts like this one again, please let me write as often as I feel the blogger power.
.peace.
That being said. My thought for today is: I wish I lived in a Musical. lol I am watching Chicago on TV and I love it! I wish I could walk through my day and anytime a problem presents itself my friends and I would break into song and sing and dance our worries away. haha wouldn't that be awesome?!?! Maybe it is a silly thought, but I like it! That deals with Interpersonal Communication, beeecause I could talk to everyone in song. lol okay really it doesn't deal with it in any awesome way but today was one of those days I was speaking of earlier and I pushed it. SO, if you don't want to see posts like this one again, please let me write as often as I feel the blogger power.
.peace.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Pre Valentine's Day.
Well, I figured this would be a good point to blog because I am doing nothing better, but a thought just came to me.
I am sure that this time tomorrow around the world the words "I love you" will have been used insanely more often that on a normal day. I think in one Valentine's card that I made I had the word LOVE on there four times. lol
While most other girls will be primping for their dates or moaning about their lack-there-of, I will be giving tours to prospective students without even a chance of seeing my significant other on this day of Love and Beauty. I suppose it isn't always that day...I have often heard it referred to as "Single's Awareness Day". I could definately see how it could be a downer day for some. However, even with the unpleasant thought that I will not get to be with Gabe tomorrow, I cannot help but to think of the people that I will be with and how much I love and appreciate them too. My roommate and podmates and dancers. Tomorrow night there is a basketball game and throughout the day I will be giving tours with my friend Eryn and showing mine and Nat's room so my point in this run-on sentence is that I will still see many people that I care dearly about and I cannot help to still love the day that makes me realize and appreciate all of the relationships I have! theend. =)
I am sure that this time tomorrow around the world the words "I love you" will have been used insanely more often that on a normal day. I think in one Valentine's card that I made I had the word LOVE on there four times. lol
While most other girls will be primping for their dates or moaning about their lack-there-of, I will be giving tours to prospective students without even a chance of seeing my significant other on this day of Love and Beauty. I suppose it isn't always that day...I have often heard it referred to as "Single's Awareness Day". I could definately see how it could be a downer day for some. However, even with the unpleasant thought that I will not get to be with Gabe tomorrow, I cannot help but to think of the people that I will be with and how much I love and appreciate them too. My roommate and podmates and dancers. Tomorrow night there is a basketball game and throughout the day I will be giving tours with my friend Eryn and showing mine and Nat's room so my point in this run-on sentence is that I will still see many people that I care dearly about and I cannot help to still love the day that makes me realize and appreciate all of the relationships I have! theend. =)
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